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Sick disorder

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 18:07:52 GMT

Today, i feel like doing something impulsive. Without considering its' consequences at all. To just free my heart from the chains of logic and rationality. For once.

This is the 3rd time i've mentioned this thought over the week.

My thoughts just hang on the edge of my tongue. Just can't keep it in, can i.

singlehood

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 18:21:46 GMT

I need a pensieve of some sort. The ones in harry potter they use to store their memories?
Words are failing me everytime. I can't even begin to pen down thoughts that are fighting to get out of my head. I'm losing my memories. I fear one day that i will have no recollection of the pleasant ones. I don't want to destroy them. Putting them in words is inadequate. I'm not good with words. Not good enough at least, to salvage these memories. They lose its form, once i attempt to pen them down. So is there nothing i can do? Nothing else except watch them slip away? Just let them slither past by my fingers and drain away?...

Choice

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 16:51:57 GMT

I heard a joke last week.

Does it really all boil down to choice? Or are you getting a little ahead of yourself.

Maybe out of curiosity i'll test out this theory.

Resolution

Sun, 28 Jun 2009 17:14:23 GMT

So... on to a brand new start?

Bon Appétit!

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 15:48:39 GMT

I like making my own meals. Its one of the rare things i have control over - taste, proportion of ingredients.

Tonight i decided on mashed potatoes for supper. No one ever serves decent mashed potatoes nowadays. Its all watery and too little butter. Was getting a little lazy.. Well i haven't been sticking to my cost-saving plan this week. Been too lazy to whip up anything of decent portions.
I love how mashed potatoes are so easy to do, plus even though i've done this too many times for me to even recall, it tastes different all the time. Tonight's portion is a little too spicy, haha but i like it. Anyway all of my meals always have a certain element that has been overdone, but aww come on who likes homecooked food that tastes like stuff you can get off a restaurant.

Trust no one

Sun, 31 May 2009 07:35:15 GMT

"Just walk away. You don't need to care about this. You don't have to get affected by all this."
"But.. what about them? ...They didn't ask for this either!"
"You're not responsible for whatever happened to them, detach quickly. You're free from any obligations again. You're on your own again."

Can't wait.

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 20:53:00 GMT

You said you'd take me to germany stay in a house your uncle owns and we can eat sausages all day long; you said you'd take me shopping in bangkok just two of us curling up under the sheets feeling warm and cozy in front of the telly two of us with a map in hand going anywhere our indecisive minds take us.

Insomnia

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 20:38:54 GMT

I am an object out of time and space.
A single body who doesn't exist in memory,
who isn't registered to be at a particular space at a particular time.

An hour and a half till i'm discovered.
No longer free to reign these grounds unnoticed.

These odd dreams i cannot explain.
These wild thoughts i choose to indulge in.

Good morning.

It doesnt matter

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 17:29:44 GMT

The first night is the loneliest.

Mini bite

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 14:25:56 GMT

It's amazing and at the same time alarming how phone calls allow you to cut into someone's life and inject a piece of yourself there.

Weaker

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 16:19:03 GMT

Ever had the feeling that you don't need anything or anybody else
that your life just revolves around one thing/person
and everything else pales in the presence of it?

For that moment i was gripped by fear.
Total dependency is no joke.

Oracle

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 16:36:05 GMT

12:26AM with one last chapter to go.

12:29AM and i'll still be staring blankly at page 261.
12:35AM and i'll probably be contemplating gossip girl.
12:40AM and i'll cave in to temptations.
12:42AM and i'll be seeking social escape.
01:00 AM and i'll be heading for bed feeling like sleeping's a waste of time.

12:33AM - Feeling much more motivated to not feel like an airhead during tomorrow's test.

Oh christmas tree.

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 17:10:27 GMT

In this room hosts a functional single bed, a makeshift wardrobe for holding clothes temporarily, a simple ikea bleached wood study table equipped with studying essentials, a chair with rollers to match it, a bin filled with trash, a multi-coloured rug to add a touch of youth, a plain gray wall waiting to be decorated and filled with pictures, and against it, a black sofa with a hot pink throw; a player with christmas carols on repeat.

I've never actually thought this as a perfect setting to spend the first hours of my christmas, but it's lovely.

Merry Christmas.

THANK GOD FOR BOOKS

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 07:49:21 GMT

Thank God for creating people.
Thank God for making them capable of thought.
Thank God for giving them the ability to write.
Thank God for inspiring them to put their thoughts in words, on pen and paper.
Thank God for giving them the idea of publishing these thoughts in literary form.
THANK GOD FOR BOOKS.

hello

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 15:56:37 GMT

I am jael and i am sick of talltelltale.
(it rhymes)